i'm never on. e-sue me, i have no inspiration. i can't write anymore, nor can i understand myself or help other people. life hit rock bottom. it's strange how whenever everything sucks i'm on deviantart posting my shitty work for no reason. idk. don't read my new work. its forced and all it does is highlight that i have no artistic talent anymore, nor the ability to write poetry of any form. my prose does not come fluidly and my voice is harsh.

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current favorite song (wallow in self-pity much? i know.)

guernica - brand new


Ever since I was young, your word is the word that always won
[worry and wake the ones you love]
A phone call I'd rather not receive,
Please use my body while I sleep
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep,
Kept clean and they will let you breathe...

[[Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind...]]

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
[I'm not writing my goodbyes]

I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do,
I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and
sink through your skin to your blood cells
[remove whatever makes you hurt]
but I am too weak to be your cure.

[[Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind...]]

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
[I'm not writing my goodbyes.]

I'm not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
[I'm not writing my goodbyes]

[[[does anyone remember back when you were very young,
did you ever think that you would be this blessed?]]]